Patients Speak
Gave Me Hope
Love is close
And dear to my heart
This friendship we have
Is only the start
You saved my life and made it worth while
When I was blue
You helped me put on a smile
You took me under your wings
And embraced me for the rough flight
Even though it was a tough battle
We never gave up the fight
When I was weak
You made me so much stronger
Without you in my life,
I don't know if I could have lived a lot longer
Through good times and bad
Victories and defeat
You never let the worries slow you down
You never missed a beat
Somehow you always knew the right thing to say
You vanished all my worries
Made them all go away
You gave me hope and let me see the light
And in the end I won the fight
You helped me not be afraid to show my true self
You replenished my state of mind and nourished me back to health
Today when I look and the mirror and love who I have become
I know in the end we both have won
~Jess
Expectations
What is perfection?
This thing I so desire
With every look in the mirror
My expectations grow higher
My body will never be good enough
I will never fit in
Unless I am perfect,
which in my mind is this
~Jess
Silly Little Game
I thought you would make my life better
But instead you took it away
You made me miss out on my childhood
Wrapped up in you silly little game
But that's what your plan was
To distract me
While you slowly take my life
Right out from under my eyes
One moment at a time
You made me feel alive
Like I had self control
You made me feel powerful
I somehow came upon you
And we were instantly attracted
Who knew from that moment on
we would be life long friends
You kept me from flying
I thought I was protected
While I was in your nest
From the pain of my real life
You were someone I could come to
And tell all my secrets
But you are my real secret
I have to hide you from my friends
You caused my family so much pain
Pain that is greater then I can imagine
I would never wish you on my worst enemy
Because I don't want to give you away
You are my guilty little pleasure
You don't tell me the real truth
You are a friend that causes me great displeasure
And have never made me feel worse about myself
You have taken time from my life
That I can never relive
Moments in time that I will have missed out on forever
You have made me miss out on life
And now I want you to be out of my life
I want to continue on
And learn to fly by myself
I want to be free from your talons
And see how I can do on my own
~Jess
Blind
I can't find a way out
My reigns are pulled tight
I am becoming weaker
I can't win the fight
Its like a tunnel with no end
Being directed by my best friend
This friend of mine is leading me blind
Even though you can't see him
He's in my mind
Controlling my every actions not letting me go
When I have made a mistake he lets me know
He's by my side in good time and in bad
No matter my feelings he makes me sad
Telling me of all my imperfections
When I look in the mirror he does his inspection
I pinch and I squeeze
Ignoring the pain
It's all planned out
It's in the game
~Jess
